For a long time, pizza frightened me. Now, I positively look forward to the nights where a BBQ chicken pizza features as part of my tea. A few nights ago, however, I put my pizza in the oven and realised that I really didn't feel like it, or any other food; strange, as I'm always peckish by tea-time. As the night wore on, I felt progressively worse until I ended up lying on the bathroom floor, head pounding, throat white and aching all over.
I haven't been sick sick for years; when I was young, tonsillitis was a frequent visitor and I vividly remember literally crawling to the GP surgery with my bucket, wondering why I never saw any other kids at the Doctor's actually being sick (something that I still wonder…). I had rather forgotten how awful it is to feel so poorly that sitting up in bed is a tremendous effort, and how much I miss being able to do things like eat and sandwich or drink a cup of tea.
For once, I actually want to be able to eat all my food - some days meeting my meal plan is an impossible and horrendous task, but right now it'd be just dandy to be able to eat again without feeling nauseous, and to feel hungry. I must remind myself of this when I do feel better! For the longest time I've taken feeling well for granted, and now that I feel lousy I realise that I should appreciate feeling like a human being a bit more! I've been trying to keep eating and drinking as much as possible and, thankfully, today I feel much better and so far have managed cereal and toast, a sandwich and some Ritz biscuits. Being ill panics me rather; I could get away with not eating, or eating less, and I get confused about wether I really do feel sick or if it's just ED butting in that because I'm sitting inside on the sofa all day, I don't need to eat. What I'm trying to do, however, is act normally and manage what I can - I need food to keep my energy up and help me get better. Plus I always seem to feel worse with an empty stomach?
Fingers crossed this horrible bug vanishes pronto - I'm supposed to start back at Uni tomorrow :(
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